2014 presented me with some of my greatest challenges in the last ten years. These painful and disruptive experiences, which I call lessons from earth school, inspired me to reach a new level of personal growth and self-reflection, but they weren’t exactly happy times.
I must admit there were times I didn’t feel like being compassionate and forgiving of unacceptable behavior. I wanted to say F***-off or better yet, hit my opposition with a barrage of insults. Instead, I’m learning to walk away slowly and think things through.
I practiced listening to my inner knowing instead of my bruised ego.
Did I want to think of a loved one who was being downright difficult as a poor, hurting soul? Honestly, no. But when I was able to be compassionate I began to feel happier. I just did. I got my power back. This didn’t mean I accepted the negative behavior patterns. Quite the contrary. It was me saying to myself, you know what? I have no idea how to handle this, but I’m not going to let it get the best of me. I’m going to get through this difficult experience and make my life exactly what I want it to be. I looked at what was truly making me happy and decided to do more of that no matter what.
This transformation wasn’t immediate. There was a weighing process, a back and forth, a deep soul searching and lots of help from my guides and angels. Help me I asked them. Help me to do what will make us both happy (meaning my spirit guides and me.) Even though it was painful, they showed me what wasn’t working.
I have been pushed and pulled this year in directions I never thought possible. In the midst of these emotional hurricanes, I understood that living my truth, being who I am, and not ignoring my boundaries, was the path I needed to follow.
There are people in my life that I love, but whom are no longer in alignment with my mission and desire to serve women who are emotionally wounded. The truth is, this supportive and soulful work is what makes me happy. In some way, I must threaten them because I choose not to conform to their demands of me. Did I really want to stop in the midst of fulfilling my divine purpose on this planet to ease the wounded ego of someone who deep down probably doesn’t like me anyway? Not a chance.
I started my soulful journey three years ago when I released my book, Alpha Chick. Since then, I’ve met thousands of women with extraordinary stories who have faced fear and allowed their pain to propel them into a life with purpose. For some of these women, the smallest action you or I might take for granted, was a HUGE leap of faith. I will forever be amazed by their courage and tenacity.
I’m not going to quit supporting these women because I am challenged, insulted, mistreated or emotionally bullied. Their grit and determination in addressing unfair and life changing circumstances is amazing. It brings me great joy to share and highlight their personal victories.
There is no better solution to solving your own problems then to help someone else solve theirs. I’m humbled and grateful to mentor these brave women who are standing up, asking for help and wanting to live a meaningful life. I didn’t ever expect this to be something I would do in my life. My calling is lifts me to a place that is above and beyond happiness and into pure joy.
My spiritual practice is what I know will truly lead me further into joy and absolute bliss. When people want drama, I can learn to see it as tedium and let it go. Changing how I react to those who are irritating or hurting me will lead me to a more blissful state of awareness.
I can protect my heart. I can choose to no longer available for battle. By releasing anger and letting things go in one ear and out the other, I choose peace and acceptance. I choose to travel in the 4th dimension and not worry about describing my path to those who dwell in the 3rd dimension to satisfy my ego.
My work is about collaboration, not competition. I feel the grace of the Angels around me, guiding me. My intentions are for the highest and best outcome for all parties involved. I can feel my emotional and spiritual growth. My anger is short lived. I don’t need to win or to be right. I just want to walk away with peace of mind.
Tomorrow when I wake up I will be calm and feel complete. I will know that I did the very best I could the day before. I will remember that I chose the high ground and stayed out of the muddy fields of revenge and cruel attacks on the individuals who challenged me. Instead, I send them love to heal the wounds buried so deep within them that they don’t know they exist. To me, compassion is freeing and the best form of happiness I know. This feeling lifts me up, it supports me and makes my soul content and leaves my spirit at peace.
The simple knowing of what I am here for is happiness at its peak form. True bliss.
