It can be so easy to justify Anger. Put quite simply, “He/she did … and I didn’t like it”. You feel violated. A seed of Anger gets planted and its off-shoot (Negativity) grows in your fertile mind. Together they thrive. You can’t seem to get past the thoughts that keep you revisiting the event(s). Or perhaps like me, you turned Anger upon your Self by listening to Negativity nag at you: “How could you have let it happen? How could you be so blind … stupid… careless? You should have …! It’s your own fault!” In this scenario you love the people who hurt you and you feel guilty about harboring Anger towards them, so you turn it towards your Self. After all, you must have done something that prompted the circumstances. Anger and Negativity continue to thrive.
Who is Anger and Negativity really hurting? The perpetrator of the acts perceived as personal attacks? You? Me? Think about it. The perpetrator has probably moved on leaving Anger and Negativity to take up residence (rent free!) inyour mind. It can be quite exhausting to host them. They require your energy to survive. And isn’t it really wasted energy? Although many people are strong enough to recognize a weed and thus remove it, weeding is not an easy thing to do. It takes self-work, self-worth, and awareness.
My self-anger reigned for many years nourished by divorce, family disappointments, sometimes overwhelming responsibilities, doubt, and fear. My Anger weed sent roots to my solar plexus where they attacked my self-esteem. How was I going to handle things? I needed to take action, so I planted Flowers of Forgiveness among the roots. I forgave others (so I thought), yet my Anger weed would not wilt. I had missed the main event – that of forgiving myself first. But help was on the way.
My own personal miracle came to me in Sedona, AZ, while at the Boynton Canyon Vortex. (A vortex is a phenomenon of subtle energy spiraling up from the earth.) There I experienced a spiritual enlightenment that allowed forgiveness and love on all levels.
I sat in meditation pose on the side of the red rock mountain landscape and asked for a healing that would be in my best and highest interest. What followed was amazing. I
‘saw’ (eyes closed) a shaft of red light flash across the Canyon directly towards me. I felt the light pierce my heart and flood every cell of my body with love. It was incredible. The spirits of my mother and former husband were infused within that light. In what might be described a millisecond of time I received an explanation for what our relationships were all about on the Earth plane. All my whys were answered in that beam of light! Love totally enveloped me. Am I able to tell you what was ‘said’? No, I can’t. But I know on a cellular and spiritual level. It’s a wonderful, peaceful knowing. The energy of that light dissolved my anger at my Self and them. What freedom! To experience such profound love has left Anger no place to live in my mind or heart. Negativity has been weeded out.
The parts of the message I was told to pass on are:
1. Forgiveness starts with the Self.
2. Love of Self allows love and forgiveness to flow to others.
I’m sure you have read similar messages in books written by credible authors. I have, too. But now I own their truths.
Love the person you see in your mirror. Accept your humanness. Forgive yourself. You will dance at a higher vibration.
About Janice E. Clark
