I have a purposeful intention in sharing myself and experiences within this penning that I love dearly. It is you, the readers and connections we make together. It is that one word or experience you can relate to that serves you well. At the same time it serves me well because I know deep in my heart and soul we are connecting on purpose, not by chance or luck. There is a Divine reason I write and you read.
My chronic illness has been roaring its ugly head for months now and this past week I experienced physical, emotional and psychological pain and discomfort like never before. It was dark, it was scary, it left me so depleted but the question continued on not just in my mind but throughout my entire being. The question is, “what message am I to receive from this, what needs to be answered.” I know a few of those answers but I know there are more to come. And the greatest message I have received thus far is the body never lies.
I still at times carry so much guilt for having health issues, I realize I need to honor these times. I now see that it’s not so much about moving away from illness, it’s about moving toward myself. I’m moving toward my connection with my soul, with the divine, and with all that is.
I’m realizing that the more I support others and give to others and offer love to others, the more I need to support myself and give to myself and love myself. It is about setting boundaries that are purely set from love. And while I’m setting these boundaries for myself, it does help to know that others will benefit as well. Seeing this illumination in a Divine way somehow makes it easier to understand and start the process.
I also am learning that in order to ground myself in my human body, I need to make space for much more Spiritual alone time than I previously may have needed. Each of us needs the gift of spaciousness and our own time to recharge or readjust to life in Spirit. It is the one truth that keeps us grounded. It’s all part of the journey and I know that I’m not alone in this. I love knowing that we can relate to each other and can support each other as we honor our bodies and our souls and give ourselves what we need in order to function at our highest, most Divine loving level.
Our sensitivity is a gift that is meant to be nurtured and cherished. And giving ourselves time alone to honor our needs is such a beautiful way to walk through life. No matter what your circumstances may be at this very moment, if you aren’t already giving yourself this Divine gift, please do. Your body and soul will thank you in such loving ways. We’re all so deserving and so worthy of this conscious kind of self love and self acceptance so we can move towards and not run away from our Divine pursuit of power within.
”It’s also helpful to realize that this very body that we have, that’s sitting right here right now…with its aches and its pleasures…is exactly what we need to be fully human, fully awake, fully alive.” ~ Pema Chodron
