Metamorphosis
(or, You Can Teach a Middle-Aged Woman New Tricks!)
by Rev. Nina Roe, ATP

As I contemplated the topic of my personal journey of transformation, I was guided by my late grandmother to look up the word “transformation.” (She was a great word enthusiast, so I knew she was making a significant point.) I learned that “trans-” is a prefix meaning “across, through, or other side of” and “formation” is a structure or something that has form. Applying this definition to my journey implies that I am on the “on the other side of form.” While this is certainly true in many senses—in evolving, I have crossed through necessary structures—this definition left me feeling a bit like a mollusk. Is transformation really what happened to me?

I was then led to the word “metamorphosis.” Discovering that “meta-” means change and “morph” means form gave me the chills: I knew I had a hit! I have definitely changed form as I trained in what I love to call Spirit’s “boot camp.” At 35, I was an executive in systems development at a large financial services company. Ten years later, I am a holistic intuitive healer teaching Angel reading classes and counseling parents with Indigo children. Who knew? If you had met me 20 years ago at my favorite watering hole in downtown Boston and told me this would be my destiny, I would have fallen on the floor in a fit of laughter. Me, a healer? Ha! I have most definitely changed form and embraced an entirely new, very solid, and incredibly wonderful structure.

So, what is the path of my personal metamorphosis? The butterfly is a beautiful and accurate analogy as it undergoes four stages in its life cycle. The first stage is the egg, which is where I was 10 years ago: an intelligent, energetic woman unaligned with my highest purpose and full of potential. Then the egg hatches into larva and becomes the hungry caterpillar. In the larval state, I met my Angel guides and began developing my relationship with Spirit. I took a dowsing rod class, which opened all my senses to the larger unseen and loving energies around me. From that point on, I hungered for my long-lost connection with my intuition, or my God-self. I had the feeling of falling in Love again for the first time—my new crush was this brilliant higher consciousness that was mine for the asking. It could teach me anything and demonstrated nothing but Love.

As my tummy grew full with happiness, knowledge, and credentials, I entered the pupa stage and withdrew as I assimilated my recently morphed self and decided how I would define my new skill set and ultimately my business. Even with guidance from my Angels, meditation, and Faith, this phase was the most difficult: it necessitated enormous Trust, focus, and diligence while I waited for my reincarnation to settle. Based on my training and background, I was comfortable starting my new practice, but I wanted to combine my past and present knowledge in an effective and practical manner. Previously I had chosen to abandon my abilities as a clear-headed businesswoman; however, I realized that I desperately needed to reintegrate and celebrate not just my corporate self but also my entire potential.

Finally, the bursting forth of the beautiful butterfly! I struggled at first with my wet wings, but they are dry now and I am excited to be the redefined woman who still carries the vibrancy of the egg, larva, and pupa. I feel my wings stretch wide with understanding. They flutter in the wind with the strength of Love. I know I am living my highest purpose. I will continue to grow and change; however, I will never repeat the metamorphic cycle to the extent required of reconnecting with my personal spirituality—my God-self.

Perhaps “transformation” has occurred as I moved through structure, but I prefer to think of my journey as evolving through very deliberate stages resulting in an adult butterfly. Now, I can reproduce by sharing my experience and knowledge to help other eggs hatch.

Everyone is an egg and has the potential to undergo a “transformational” metamorphosis! Each soul’s path may be different, but one common link is the will of our God-selves. Trust that all you experience has a higher purpose by looking for the gift in everything and have gratitude for all the nuggets of gold in your life. It takes work and dedication, but think of how the butterfly begins its cycle. Imagine if it had the potential to fly, but never made the journey.

Rev. Nina Roe, certified by Doreen Virtue as an Angel Therapy Practitioner®, is a spiritual counselor, holistic healer, and founder of www.AngelsTeach.com and  www.spiritedchildren.com